Eva Smith’s Diary Essay
Eva Smith’s Diary
Started work again today after a long summer holiday. It was hard to get in to the swing of things again but I soon got used to it. Could do with the money anyway! Jean, Betty, Sheila, Martha, Pat and I asked for a pay rise from Mr Birling because the wages he gives us are barely enough to stay alive on. Everything else is getting more and more expensive, yet we are paid the same. Of course he said no, because of competition and all that. He is a businessman, he doesn’t understand what it is like for us in the lower class and I don’t think he cares either. At least I don’t have any other mouths to feed, unlike the others.
I haven’t been sacked yet, which is what I was expecting. Although he is being odd with me, I think after nearly two weeks it is safe to say I can keep my job! I can’t believe it! I got sacked from the factory today. I think it is because I asked for a pay rise with the others – they were all sacked as well. I don’t know what I am going to do next I suppose I will have to look for a new job. I have no money left from before and I need money to keep my house. I think I’ll look for a job tomorrow.
Still haven’t found a job. What am I going to do? I can’t understand why I got sacked. I always worked hard for him. Finally found a job! It is at Millwards, a shop where all the upper class ladies shop. I like it much more than Birling’s factory. All I do is give advice to the ladies on what to buy from Millwards. I suppose I would call myself a customer assistant. It pays well too. If I save up I should be able to live a little more like the upper class. It’s nice to have a job in a warm shop now it’s winter. I hope I will have this job for ages- I love it!
Eva x Something awful happened today. A customer made a complaint against me. I love my job and I don’t want to loose it, I don’t think I did anything wrong. What happened was that a girl and her mother came into the shop to buy the girl a dress. She was my age I would have thought. Anyway the head assistant and I were helping them. The mother thought that she would look good in one and the girl liked another. The head assistant asked me to help put the dress on and when she was looking I started laughing. Not loudly, just to myself. She saw in the mirror and left in a bad mood.
As I thought, the girl told my boss that if he didn’t sack me then she would get her mother to close her account with Millwards. So he sacked me. She was the one in the bad mood it was nothing to do with me! I know I shouldn’t have laughed but I did. I still don’t think it is fair for me to be sacked. So now I am totally jobless and penniless. What am I going to do? I now know what I am going to do, infact I have done it! I am no longer known as Eva Smith I am now called Daisy Renton. It was obvious that I wasn’t going to have any luck getting a job with a name like Eva so I thought that I would make a new start with a new name! Hopefully Daisy will have more luck than Eva. I am out to look for another job tomorrow. I am fed up of being lonely too. I have no friends, no husband, no one. Well Eva didn’t.
Still no luck. I am getting desperate. I have no one. I am so lonely. What’s wrong with me? Daisy’s luck has started! I met a man tonight called Gerald. I was at the Palace Theatre Bar. He came over and started talking. I felt ill and he asked me what I had had to eat, I told him a good meal. He saw right through me and I explained that I had had nothing to eat and I had nowhere to live. I told him about loosing my job too. I told him that I was staying at a friend’s house and he dropped me off. He insisted that he would take me to the door, but of course there wasn’t one. So I had to tell him the truth about that too. He has given me a flat, which he was looking after for a friend. It is lovely. Clean and cosy. He gave me some housekeeping money and some money for food. He is comingack for a meal in two days…
Gerald has finished with me. For the last six months it has been lovely. Someone to care for me, look out for me, love me. Now he’s gone. He said he was with someone else. It turns out Daisy Renton isn’t so lucky after all. There’s nowhere else to go and no one else to turn to. I can’t believe I could be so stupid to have fallen for him. I think I am going to go to the seaside for a while. I don’t know if I’ll comeback here again. I have told Gerald I don’t want his flat so I would have nowhere to live if I did come back. I just need to get away clear my head. The coast is the best place for that.
University/College: University of Arkansas System
Type of paper: Thesis/Dissertation Chapter
Date: 9 November 2017