Going to a foreign land is everyone’s dream. Most people especially the young ones would love to go to other countries to experience how life would be. This opportunity came to me when my father sent me to United States to study Physical Therapy. Many people believe that United States has a very good educational system. When I learned about this news from my father, I was mixed emotions. I did not know how I felt at that time whether I will be happy or sad. Imagine I will be studying in another continent which is far from my county, Saudi Arabia.
On the lighter side, I felt a bit excited because knowing I am going to United States, it is already a big thing because it is everyone’s dream however I am extremely sad because I know I am going to be separated from my family especially from my grandmother who is very close to my heart. The thoughts of leaving my place and my family are so depressing. It makes me cry sometimes at night looking and memorizing every corner of our house where I grow up, because its corner has a lot of good memories that I will always treasure in my heart, specifically the bedroom I shared with my beloved grandmother.
Many people might think that I am over-the-top when I talk about my family. But that is really me! I really value the importance of my family. Without my family, I will not be the person I am at present and in the future. It is my family who supports me all of my life. The members of my family are the people who never turn me down when I needed them most and never turn their back when I am in pain, sorrow, and happiness. They showered me with love and care that nobody can give me without any expectations of return. My mother has taught me to love and show concern to every members of my family.
Although when my brothers and I were still young, it cannot be avoided that we fight because of immaturity however it did not destroy our bonds as siblings because my mother inculcated in our young minds and hearts to be a keeper of one another. I can vividly remember how my mother prepared for our breakfast so that we can eat delicious and nutritious meals before going to school. She was a hands-on mother to us. My mother and my dad never lacked in giving discipline to us. My mother kept reminding me the importance of good education.
She made me realized at a young age that through education, I can be successful in my chosen career. She motivated me a lot to do well in my studies. On the other hand, since my father was at work during day time, he never failed to make up during night time or whenever he had free time. He played with us and treated us some goodies. My parents made sure that we have family day where we can bond with each other. That was why when father sent me here in the United States, I am extremely sad rather than super excited because I know I will be home sick and I don’t know if I can live by myself without them.
But since my father explained to me the reason why I need to come here, I just obeyed him because I can see his face how happy he was when he learned that I got a high GPA that give me a chance to be admitted in Virginia Common Wealth University (VCU). I know that no parents would seek harmful things for their children but only the best for them. Though my heart ached and did not want to leave, I followed what he said. Another reason why I do not want to go was because I am also very attached with my grandmother.
When I was in Saudi Arabia, I used to share a room with my grandmother, played games, and share secrets because I am the only girl in the family; thus, she even raised me until I was ten years old. She is a lovely grandmother. She always teaches me good things about life in an early age. She doesn’t only treat me as her grand-daughter but as well as her best friend. We talk a lot of things especially when she supervises me with my studies although my parents are supportive. She is also a good listener and an adviser that made me express myself and my real feelings towards situations that happen to me.
I am also relieved just by her kiss or hug because it makes me feel secure and loved. When I was about to live, my grandmother was very ill. I know that she was dying. I knew it in my heart. However my grandmother has told me to pursue my dreams and make her proud of me. When the day came for my departure, I felt so gloomy. When I arrived here in the United States, there were no nights that I never cry. My pillows were the only witnesses how lonely I was. There was even a time that I always counting the day and looking forward a vacation to my country, Saudi Arabia, to meet my love ones again.
I really had the hard time coping up with new things that I am facing in the United States. I used to wake up with my mother’s voice calling us to wake up and eat breakfast or my grandmother’s advices when I am feeling down. But now when I transferred here to study, I felt that I am alone. I really missed my family. I tried to live a normal life, pretending that things are going to be okay. I always mesmerize the memorable moments I had with my family way back in Saudi to make me keep going. The time came when my grandmother died because of her illness. I was very clueless about her death.
My parents especially my father did not inform me about my grandmother’s death. Every time I made a phone call to them, I always asked my father about my grandmother’s condition. But every time I mentioned such subject, my father always told me that my grandmother was okay and shifted to another topics. He made stories just to make me believe that grandma was still alive. But when I went home, I found out that my grandmother has died four months after I arrived in Saudi Arabia. I was very shocked and hurt why my parents did not tell me about the death of my grandmother.
I could not understand at first because I cannot imagine that when I go home I can no longer see and talk my best friend, my grandmother. I really had the hard time accepting the fact. But my father made me understand that they did not inform me so that I will not be disturb with my studies because they already knew my situation here in the United States how homesick I was and if they will do so, they will be just adding my sorrow. I completely understand why my parents had kept that from me because I know they did not want me to be burden anymore. It will be only adding to my depression of being far from them.
Although my grandmother already passed away but her good memories are always keep in my heart. Nobody can replace her. In addition, my family continuously shows their support to me. Although I am the only girl but I thank God that my parents did not brought me up as a spoiled brat but as a disciplined person that knows the value and importance of family. This personal experience made me to be a family-oriented individual. It makes me also understands how family molds individual’s character and a child’s character is a reflection of what kind of family he/she has.